Standing senseless,listening to "Till am no one again" (Ah! That song) at the edge of my terrace(how I longed for a cliff) looking down with a rush of adrenalin to jump down, with my ipod probably. (R.I.P both of us) The reason being the longing to try it out. Experience gravitation for a moment(considering the distance from my terrace to the ground and the intensity I jump with) Before that I would make a laugh, just like Roark did.
The effect left by Rand's hero in the book is er... volte-face(after the title). It made me experience voidness. Only that. No other emotions. Accept every slur I face and give them a totally 'I don't care a damn' look.(Void!) Make them feel it was a waste of energy and time. Make them forget my existence. Just like I did. I also wanted to flee from my commitments whenever I feel like and still survive. The idea of being slack,empty,losing identity in a painless ebb, content to vanish and let nothing remain defined. Intriguing. No? Only a minute would it take after all. JUMP. And then. END.
But the song switch to 'Laree chotee' made me do the unexpected, change my plans.(No, I dint jump) The more I heard that song the more I lost the interest to jump. So I gave up the idea and got down. But why change the perspective? Continue them I would.
Now there is a switch to 'Do you remember?'. Fine! Dance?
Getting better it is, isn't it?
Oh yeah! Before that salute to Howard Roark(My new love)
Currently humming 'Boulevard Of Broken Dreams'. After this I would go to my terrace, this time without my ipod.
Ah! Salute to you Bf :P
ReplyDelete